OK. I am really tired of my current life and state of being. I don’t know how to explain it, but I am just tired of this life. I feel alone. Far away from my parents and my country and sometimes just don’t know what I am doing with my life. I have a several different goals to follow and seem to be sucking at following even a single one. I don’t have consistency. I start something and then just leave it. This is now going to work out well. I have more than 20 interests maybe but can’t practice them daily and this sucks a big time. If you don’t practice something every day you won’t become good at it for ever.