I sometimes hate myself, when I look at past…

When I reflect on my past, I sometimes feel strong disapointment and hate toward myself. Mix of negative feelings that there isn’t anything like self-passion and love.

I feel like many times, I have given up on my dreams really quickly. Things that make me happy and excited. Things that could have enriched my life. I know that I did my best to pursue my dreams, things that are exciting for me in life. And I’ll continue to pursue them.

I don’t want to listen to others, to the things that they say, to how difficult a path is or whether I can make it or not.

I have failed many times but I know all of it was part of this path, part of this journey that made me today.

When I look back, I wish that I have had made different decisions, but no regrets. I did what I thought it was right at the moment and now I want to focus all of my attention to the future and the rest of time that I have left in this planet.

Therer are two ways in life, either be always fearful of what bad might happen on my way and stop me from progressing what is interesing and valuable for me or either you can think and imagine how better my life can becoming in coming years if I follow every and each day what is important for me.

Regardless of how hard it is to get, how many obstacles are on your way, you can achieve what you have had always dream of it. You have given the opportunity of being alive, while hundread of thousand other people didn’t have this blessing and isn’t that a shame to be wasted but not pursuing what matters to you?

You can’t escape your fears and follow your dreams at the same time, you have to pick one, go for one and be all in the game.

I want to silence that fearful vioce in my head, that voice that always reminds me that something bad might happen if you follow and go for something that interest you. The voice that says you can’t, it’s hard, it is not worth it, it is not for you.

I am not saying that do whatever you want and go wherever you want to go, but rather what I say is take yourself seroius, take yourself serious, focus on what matters in the moment and go for things that enrich your life.

This doesn’t have to be shifting your life direction dramatically by going for things that are just illuseional, it just means that in addition to what are your daily responsibilities, do more, do what is your passion.

When you come home after work, how do you spend your leisure time? On social media? playing video games? watching TV?

I am not saying that don’t do that. What I am saying is think about your time and the direction that your life is going. What matters to you most? and how you can get the most out of this opportunity that has been given to you?